I don’t know what is a matter with me lately, it’s not my exercise or diet (even though this has been appalling lately) but life in general. I seem to keep putting everything off, not looking after myself properly, not keeping on top of the housework etc and I am just lacking in complete motivation to change it. I’m think I’m stuck in a rut, it’s the same old same old and I’m not getting anywhere but the problem is I don’t know where to go or where I want to head. Does that make sense?!
My diet and exercise I’ve been trying to keep on top of but I can see things slipping one by one and before I know I won’t be doing anything. I’m starting to make excuses to not exercise which is unlike me. Also the naughty treat is turning into a whole day and then before I know it a whole weekend and to be frank I just don’t care!
I’m just fed up of plodding through life. We haven’t had a holiday for three years and can’t afford to even think about one, our house is just falling down around our ears literally. Our shower leaked through our ceiling as we had some dodgy builders in to do a “on the side” job to install a new bathroom and I’m just fed up of making do. I ask Mr G what he’s going to do about it and I seriously think he believes we’ll have a visit from the fairies and it will all be ok.
We’re desperate for another baby and Mr G would have one now but I can’t help think about the financial aspect of it that we simply can’t afford it. I trying my hardest to save as much money as possible and get ourselves debt free (only £100 to go woohoo!) but I feel like I’m getting nowhere fast. Maybe once this month of is out of the way and we have no more debts then I can seriously start thinking about saving for our future. I feel the need for lists and spreadsheets to try and regain some control and direction.
Sorry blogland this is obviously a hormonal rant but I really felt like I needed to get it out.
