I don’t know what is a matter with me lately, it’s not my exercise or diet (even though this has been appalling lately) but life in general. I seem to keep putting everything off, not looking after myself properly, not keeping on top of the housework etc and I am just lacking in complete motivation to change it. I’m think I’m stuck in a rut, it’s the same old same old and I’m not getting anywhere but the problem is I don’t know where to go or where I want to head. Does that make sense?!
My diet and exercise I’ve been trying to keep on top of but I can see things slipping one by one and before I know I won’t be doing anything. I’m starting to make excuses to not exercise which is unlike me. Also the naughty treat is turning into a whole day and then before I know it a whole weekend and to be frank I just don’t care!
I’m just fed up of plodding through life. We haven’t had a holiday for three years and can’t afford to even think about one, our house is just falling down around our ears literally. Our shower leaked through our ceiling as we had some dodgy builders in to do a “on the side” job to install a new bathroom and I’m just fed up of making do. I ask Mr G what he’s going to do about it and I seriously think he believes we’ll have a visit from the fairies and it will all be ok.
We’re desperate for another baby and Mr G would have one now but I can’t help think about the financial aspect of it that we simply can’t afford it. I trying my hardest to save as much money as possible and get ourselves debt free (only £100 to go woohoo!) but I feel like I’m getting nowhere fast. Maybe once this month of is out of the way and we have no more debts then I can seriously start thinking about saving for our future. I feel the need for lists and spreadsheets to try and regain some control and direction.
Sorry blogland this is obviously a hormonal rant but I really felt like I needed to get it out.
Don't worry we all need a rant sometimes. I've been feeling very similar to you over the last couple of weeks so I can really understand where your at. I think we all get these awful ruts. The main thing thats helped me pull myself round has been talking to people about it - my husband, my friends and my boss and then I've kind of just given myself a mental kick up the arse as well! I really hope you start to feel better soon and re gain your motivation x
ReplyDeletedo the tone of our blogs reflect the mushed upness that we are today after the wknd! mines has a very similar tone! obviously your problems were around before the wknd, but feeling how your doing today, has obviously made you examine it a bit more than usual. time to get some spreadsheets and lists on the go for sure, set some goals for this week, whether it be simple stuff like 2l of water each day, to saving £10 on your food shop, to getting out excersising 4 times, etc, it can be a range of things, set the targets then re-evaluate them along with your spreadsheets in a weeks time, you'll feel really happy with yourself if you've met any of the targets. and any you havent gives you direction to help sort it out! you can do this!
ReplyDeletePS....i think your get up and go got up and went out to play with mine, i cant find mine today either! naughty motivation! x
I'm not sure what I can add to two great replies already, but just wanted to say Neenies spreadsheet idea is probably something that would really work for you, if I know you like I think I do. Sometimes we all lose the plot a little, it's how we find our way back to the straight and narrow that defines us really, not how lost we got in the first place.
ReplyDeleteYou're a strong willed perfectionist and quite often, I guess that ends up with you making the rod for your own back and then feeling like this, thats what it is with me anyway.
Maybe instead of focusing on the big picture, picking something to handle for the next month would be a welcome distraction?
Run, bath, candles, early night, and tomorrow is a fresh start. We're all behind you :)
x x
:( Can't say much better than the above, apart from wanitng to congratulate you for getting so far out of debt! I wish I only had £100 to go. You'll get there hun. Mr E and I ended up in the haven site at the lakes in March, and that's our big holiday gone for the year!! Best £130 we've ever spent though! Try get a cheapy all inclusive last minute. xx
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