I am my own person so why can't I eat that way....ahhhh!

Firstly weekend round up. It was manic but good. Friday night I had a meal with my friends and chose from the menu before i got there so didn't even need to look at the menu so therefore I wasn't tempted by anything else. Also everyone wanted a dessert but I was full and declined straight away (can you see my halo sparkling?!). Well if only I could have been good the rest of the weekend!

Saturday I had a photoshoot which was good fun, lewis is just such a character in front of the camera. Also i had some done with lewis and it was good to see the real me rather than that in the mirror. I think I look completely different in a photo than I do in the mirror, my head is obviously not quite caught up yet! In fact some if the photos actually shocked me, I never realised that you could see my ribs on my upper chest, this is obviously not a good thing but part of me is pleased which is quite worrying as I thought those ED tendancies were long gone :-(

Sunday I had my photographers round for lunch working on a sample album for them to display their work and they picked our wedding! How exciting, it was lovely looking through all our pics and made me want to get married all over again. I also had a fab run and have got my love of running back, which is a good job as the half is only 5 days away! When I got back from my run I was on cloud 9 and full of energy even though I had just ran 6.7 miles, so I decided to cut the grass. I stayed in my running gear and litteraly started as soon as I got back so I still had my HRM on and i burnt a whopping 325 cals by doing 50mins of grass cutting. So never under estimate the calorie burn chores can be!

Monday we went to the zoo then a walk on the waterfront. It was a lovely day and spend some time with my two gorgeous boys.

Today however I extremely annoyed with myself, food hasn't been good at all. I seem to lose all control when I'm out eating with hubs. He goes for something naughty and I end up ordering the same, why can't I chose for myself, there were healthier options but no I went with what he was having. Why do I do this? I really need to change and don't know how to. I know I shouldn't be so hard on myself but I'm so fed up with being so naughty on the weekends that I'm having to be 110% during the week so try and claw some of it back, I can't keep doing this I need to find a balance

Work, eat, sleep and train!

This has been my life for the last 18 weeks!

Things have been pretty manic in the G household over the last few months. I'm working fulltime and then training for the half marathon and feel like I've been a recluse from normal life! I know once the half is out the way I can get some normality back in my life. My son has been poorly as well with severe constipation and we had to concentrate on getting him right and sorting out his diet to enable him to come off the meds. Diary is out as is cakes, chocolate and generally all processed foods. It's hard to explain to a two year old that he can't have certain foods but it's for his own good, in fact it will benefit us all. Thank goodness for Nakd bars, this is his new treat and he loves them and they are all good stuff!

The half is just over a week and I have a mix bag of emotions, excited, nervous, and overall can't wait for it to be over. My love of running has been dwindling and I can't wait to get back out there for enjoyment rather then having to do a certain distance because it is my training plan. The one thing I'm pretty excited about is meeting Kat from Fat Kat to Pretty Kitty, Gayle from Running Slim, Alex and hopefully Nicola from Fitness and Cake, these girls are amazing online support and can't wait to meet them in real life. It's a shame that Neen from Broadbean to Runnerbean and Laura from Super Veggie won't be there but I'm sure they will be in spirit!

With all this going on I've been attempting to get my eating back on track. We went on holiday and all ate badly resulted in me putting on 8lbs in so many days!!! I was now sitting at 9lbs above my first goal and 13lbs above my second goal of 9st 10lbs. I did not like it one bit so things had to change. After a clean up on the diet and my serious training for the half I'm pleased to report i've lost 9.2lbs in 6 weeks, 2.8 of those this week alone and I'm now 9st 13.8lbs. Oh how good it feels to be back under that 10st again, I'm grining like a Cheshire Cat today :0)

Waves Hello!

Hello hello hello (in an echo voice) anyone out there?!

Gosh how long is it since I last blogged! I am going to try and find the time to come in here more often. I miss reading everyone's updates and feel a bit out if the loop :0(

I promise I will make more of an effort girls xx