Firstly weekend round up. It was manic but good. Friday night I had a meal with my friends and chose from the menu before i got there so didn't even need to look at the menu so therefore I wasn't tempted by anything else. Also everyone wanted a dessert but I was full and declined straight away (can you see my halo sparkling?!). Well if only I could have been good the rest of the weekend!
Saturday I had a photoshoot which was good fun, lewis is just such a character in front of the camera. Also i had some done with lewis and it was good to see the real me rather than that in the mirror. I think I look completely different in a photo than I do in the mirror, my head is obviously not quite caught up yet! In fact some if the photos actually shocked me, I never realised that you could see my ribs on my upper chest, this is obviously not a good thing but part of me is pleased which is quite worrying as I thought those ED tendancies were long gone :-(
Sunday I had my photographers round for lunch working on a sample album for them to display their work and they picked our wedding! How exciting, it was lovely looking through all our pics and made me want to get married all over again. I also had a fab run and have got my love of running back, which is a good job as the half is only 5 days away! When I got back from my run I was on cloud 9 and full of energy even though I had just ran 6.7 miles, so I decided to cut the grass. I stayed in my running gear and litteraly started as soon as I got back so I still had my HRM on and i burnt a whopping 325 cals by doing 50mins of grass cutting. So never under estimate the calorie burn chores can be!
Monday we went to the zoo then a walk on the waterfront. It was a lovely day and spend some time with my two gorgeous boys.
Today however I extremely annoyed with myself, food hasn't been good at all. I seem to lose all control when I'm out eating with hubs. He goes for something naughty and I end up ordering the same, why can't I chose for myself, there were healthier options but no I went with what he was having. Why do I do this? I really need to change and don't know how to. I know I shouldn't be so hard on myself but I'm so fed up with being so naughty on the weekends that I'm having to be 110% during the week so try and claw some of it back, I can't keep doing this I need to find a balance
Do you think its force of habit when your out with hubby? Perhaps making a plan before your weekends of when you will allow yourself to relax a little is a good idea. I think thats why I did so well this weekend, I looked at my plans and decided when I could deviate from regular food (starbucks on Saturday, dessert with lunch Sunday, ice cream monday). When my plans changed, I didn't have the starbucks, but didn't feel bad for having half a bag of caramel nibbles with hubby (a small bag of course!) and when we didn't have ice cream on Monday I treated myself to a chocolate fondue at home.
ReplyDeleteThanks Nic, you're right it is out if habit when I'm with hubby and I need to get out of it. I had a plan on fri night and stuck to it and I was with friends I just need to put the same plan into action when with hubs. The old saying you never plan to fail just fail to plan comes to mind here!
ReplyDeleteHannah, my hubby is my downfall too some days, he means well, but all the little treats and bad influence - it's so easy to crack - and i have too this week - again. I think you'r running is astonishing though, how you do it i'll never know, i always see your updates on FB of your runs, and it always makes me walk faster when i get off the train :o)
ReplyDeleteLove your pictures by the way - they're fab!